Back!!! The past few days have been pretty....... tortuous. I've been feeling and acting like crap. I've never felt like this before. Had so many million doubt in myself. Can I really do it? Am I really up for it? Is it worth it? Am I doing the right thing? All the what ifs and whats not. I'm so afraid to disappoint again. Was so overwhelmed w all these insecurities that I broke down.
Had a good talk w Janna one of the night and she managed to enlighten me. I like how her words always make so much sense. At least to me. Anyway she was telling me..
-Don't regret what you've decided in the past, there's nothing that can't be changed for the future.
-Theres no such thing as a "wrong move" because you learn from everything.
-Can't change the past but I can definitely change what lies ahead.
How true. So yeah w that I've decided to just put in my best. And I hope I'll attain the result that matches w my efforts, xx.
And of course there are many others who had been there for me. (Yknow who you are!!) For remembering bout the start of my papers. For encouraging me. For motivating me. All those little acts, I'll remember them in my heart. (L) Promise to devote more time back to y'all after all these is over xoxo!
And oh, A is away to TW already haixxx gonna be separated from him for lika one month zzz. Hopefully he's surviving well for training!
On a lighter note, I'm gonna go see 2pm on sat w welly! She managed to get a free tix for me. Awesome maxxx! Finally gonna see khunnie in real life #fangirls #selfproclaimed-hottest hehehe excited only!
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